My Own Heart

I believe wholly 100% in following your heart (in most cases), yet I find it so difficult to follow my own. I've been working on that a bit the past year or so, doing things I've always wanted to, but never had the courage (or opportunity) to do, but there are so many other ways in which my heart is still being neglected. I'm hoping to someday resolve those problems, & fulfill all my goals/dreams in life, but it's just so difficult. Everything's just so overwhelming. My heart just yearns for things I've never been able to give it. But I am trying, & there's nothing more that I can do. I wish things would just change over night & I could wake up tomorrow with an entirely new life, one in which I could truly be myself & truly exist in the world, but unfortunately, that's impossible & it's SO not going to happen. I guess both my heart & my self are going to have to continue to wait until I can finally overcome all these obstacles.

I just hope I don't have to wait much longer. I don't think my heart can take anymore. Or at least it doesn't deserve to.

lyricalongings lyricalongings
31-35, F
1 Response Oct 21, 2008

Lol well, I wrote that almost two years ago & not much has changed in my life, although I've done a lot to change it. When I said it's "SO not going to happen" I was referring to the changes not happening overnight & I was right. They definitely did not. I was not saying that they were never going to happen at all, just not all of a sudden. The same goes with my use of the word impossible. Some things truly are impossible, especially at this time because of my situation. I understand how you & others can think that I'm being pessimistic, but that's not it at all. I'm merely saying what I know to be true based on the facts of my life. <br />
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As for saying only I create the obstacles in my life, that is absolutely wrong. You did say in the beginning of your comment that you don't know what I'm talking about, & because of that, you can not assume that my problems are ones I have created for myself. I was born with obstacles I have spent my entire life trying to overcome in one way or another. Some of them I will have to learn to live with somehow & will never be overcome. That's just the truth.