I Believe In God and Pray
Since i was a kid, i believe in God. I often pray. I also knew that God is always there guiding me and protecting me. He gives us blessings.
But honestly, i just knew that it was the right thing to do. I just knew that i am going to be blessed when i believe in Him. I don't often go to church, and i never read the Bible. Only when i was required like in school.
So when i'm already at my 20's, serious emotional problems came into my life. It's normal. I am a positive thinker so i know what ways to do on surpassing those problems. But deep inside, something's lacking. So I pray to God when i have a problem, i even cry. But i still can't feel the real feeling of hope. I am really trying to feel what other people says about "they always feel good when they surrender their problems to God". I am doing that but it seems like it's not working for me. But I am really trying.
There's a battle inside me.
Then the time came where i really felt depressed. I felt hopeless. I prayed and prayed and it sometimes work but only temporary. The depression comes back. Then i still did the prayers and positive thinking.
The depression came to an end but the outcome was, i was confused about my life. I didn't know what i want, i didn't know what to do anymore, i just wake up everyday and do the cycle of my life with the thought of "whats gonna happen to me?". my feelings are numb and i feel like a zombie. I am not happy. I don't appreciate the things around me.
Then, for the past few weeks, i started learning things about God. At first, many questions pop into my mind. Those were actually doubts. But then i talked to a friend, who's really religious. Because of curiosity, i asked many things or shared my ideas about God. He listened and explained some things. Then i talked to my mom about God too. She told me that i should remove all my doubts about Him and just believe in Him. I trust my mom. She's a wonderful person. So i did. I removed all my doubts. It's kinda hard but i blocked all the doubts when they're trying to get in to my mind again. I remembered them saying about the Bible. It can help me. I wanted to try it but i didn't have the eagerness to read it so i always forget.
Then a while ago, actually just now, i tried opening a website about Bible verses. I was just curious about it. So i read some. I read some about encouragement and it's really good. I just realized that the feeling is different when it comes to a Bible. I read many self help books before but this one is different. The feeling is that God is talking to you.
Then i saw a section about Encouragement. When i read about Proverbs 3:5-6 and Isaiah 35:4, i started crying. I felt something that i can't explain but for the first time, i felt that God talked to me directly. I think hope and happiness is coming back to me.
Right at this very moment, i feel happy and calm. I hope this feeling stays with me forever.
God bless us all. =)
But honestly, i just knew that it was the right thing to do. I just knew that i am going to be blessed when i believe in Him. I don't often go to church, and i never read the Bible. Only when i was required like in school.
So when i'm already at my 20's, serious emotional problems came into my life. It's normal. I am a positive thinker so i know what ways to do on surpassing those problems. But deep inside, something's lacking. So I pray to God when i have a problem, i even cry. But i still can't feel the real feeling of hope. I am really trying to feel what other people says about "they always feel good when they surrender their problems to God". I am doing that but it seems like it's not working for me. But I am really trying.
There's a battle inside me.
Then the time came where i really felt depressed. I felt hopeless. I prayed and prayed and it sometimes work but only temporary. The depression comes back. Then i still did the prayers and positive thinking.
The depression came to an end but the outcome was, i was confused about my life. I didn't know what i want, i didn't know what to do anymore, i just wake up everyday and do the cycle of my life with the thought of "whats gonna happen to me?". my feelings are numb and i feel like a zombie. I am not happy. I don't appreciate the things around me.
Then, for the past few weeks, i started learning things about God. At first, many questions pop into my mind. Those were actually doubts. But then i talked to a friend, who's really religious. Because of curiosity, i asked many things or shared my ideas about God. He listened and explained some things. Then i talked to my mom about God too. She told me that i should remove all my doubts about Him and just believe in Him. I trust my mom. She's a wonderful person. So i did. I removed all my doubts. It's kinda hard but i blocked all the doubts when they're trying to get in to my mind again. I remembered them saying about the Bible. It can help me. I wanted to try it but i didn't have the eagerness to read it so i always forget.
Then a while ago, actually just now, i tried opening a website about Bible verses. I was just curious about it. So i read some. I read some about encouragement and it's really good. I just realized that the feeling is different when it comes to a Bible. I read many self help books before but this one is different. The feeling is that God is talking to you.
Then i saw a section about Encouragement. When i read about Proverbs 3:5-6 and Isaiah 35:4, i started crying. I felt something that i can't explain but for the first time, i felt that God talked to me directly. I think hope and happiness is coming back to me.
Right at this very moment, i feel happy and calm. I hope this feeling stays with me forever.
God bless us all. =)
By:
iameliza
Age:
22-25
,
Female
