I believe in God really, because several times I make a prayer request he always grant it. Like when I asked if the guy that I liked so much would hopefully fall in love with me though it's really quite impossible because he's very shy and very reserve person. God really granted my request in which I was really speechless and thankful. When, I was in difficulty in getting a job, I almost give up and prayed if only He would give me a job that would satisfy me and He did it again. And another job granted, my ultimate dream job. So, that's why I believe in God so much that He exist, He's my only confidant if I have problem that I couldn't even share to my close friends, I know He is listening to me somewhere. But I just feel ashamed of Him because I committed a mortal sin, I am having a relationship with a married man and had recent abortion. Both are list of the 10 commandments which are original sin. I don't know if God will forgive me for what I've done, but I do sincerely pray and ask forgiveness everyday. If humans can't forgive, He is the only One who can forgive just like Mary Magdalene.