All of a sudden I just stopped praying to God. Not entirely, but lesser prayers are coming from me. I don't know why I loss all interest but I feel like it's because HE hasn't answered a very personal problem of mine. Yes, HE has fixed my other personal/family problems but what about the other problem? Is HE just going to let it be? I know I shouldn't doubt him but things have been getting outta hand in my relationships because of it and I don't see any improvement in it. Maybe I'm just being too forward and not being patient enough. Maybe it's not time to answer it. But when then? When I'm dead? When I've finally had it and decide to take my life HE will pity me and show mercy? Truth be told, I don't want to lose my faith in HIM. I LOVE HIM. No matter how much I try to blame HIM for every bad thing that happens, I still love HIM for turning things around and for surprising us with blessings. I hope I find enlightenment and see my life on a lighter note and not let my problem consume me.