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I Believe In God, Yet I Have Issues

Slowly Losing Faith

By: kaulitz13
Written on January 28th, 2013
All of a sudden I just stopped praying to God. Not entirely, but lesser prayers are coming from me. I don't know why I loss all interest but I feel like it's because HE hasn't answered a very personal problem of mine. Yes, HE has fixed my other personal/family problems but what about the other problem? Is HE just going to let it be? I know I shouldn't doubt him but things have been getting outta hand in my relationships because of it and I don't see any improvement in it. Maybe I'm just being too forward and not being patient enough. Maybe it's not time to answer it. But when then? When I'm dead? When I've finally had it and decide to take my life HE will pity me and show mercy? Truth be told, I don't want to lose my faith in HIM. I LOVE HIM. No matter how much I try to blame HIM for every bad thing that happens, I still love HIM for turning things around and for surprising us with blessings. I hope I find enlightenment and see my life on a lighter note and not let my problem consume me.
By: kaulitz13
Age: 18-21 , Female
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    I believe there is something powerful watching over us but to me it is not the God of the church and it has no gender because our spirits do not need gender when we pass on, we pass in a different spiritual dimension where physical bodies no longer have any use,we are spirit pure and simple and we do not reproduce,the church is paternalistic, it promotes men above women,it likes to keep women "in their places" so to the church God has to be a man.We get help from beyond when we pray but I do not believe it is fron a "loving father" it could just as likely be from a "loving mother" or from a loving relative or friend who has passed away and is watching over us.Do not be discouraged that God does not hear you,with all due respect you have been given the wrong concept of what God is by the church.To me God is a force we can tune into and I do believe in miracles,they do exist but we have to watch what happen within our thoughts,negativity brings negativity and fear can wreak havock in our lives,we must keep faith in ourselves because we are a part of that great universe which surround us and beyond.Take care.

    Jan 28
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