It's Getting Harder To Be Positive
I have always been a religious person. I believe in God with all my heart and although I am no longer a regular church goer, I still pray and talk to the Lord daily.
I have had a lot of ups and downs in life (mostly downs it seems), but my faith has carried me through. I am thankful that after all I have been through over the years, I have managed to get by and remain relatively unscathed. However, I have to admit that it is getting harder everyday to reamin positive about my experiences.
Despite living a good life and trying to always make the right decisions, I continually find myself in difficult situations. What do you do, when you have exhausted all of your resourses and it still is not enough? What do you do when you can't catch a break? What happens when you are at risk to lose everything? How do you overcome your problems when enemies attack you relentlessly?
I always manage to get by, and I suppose I should be grateful for that, but when will the trials end? Will I ever see a day of peace and prosperity? I know there are so many others, worse off than I but there are so many others doing better.
Is it wrong of me to want more? Is it wrong of me to ask God for more? I keep praying but I'm starting to think He isn't listening to me. Maybe I have been wrong all of these years and the truth is that God doesn't really care.
If God has a plan for my life, I certainly can't figure out what it is.