My Faith JourneyI do believe in God because I have seen too much of His influence on my life to deny His existence. However, it has not been an easy faith. I was raised in a Bible waving, finger pointing, "turn or burn" church, and although I was there every week, I was not there because I wanted to be, but out of obligation. As a teenager, although I could not turn my back on God entirely (yes, I rebelled) the "love of God" talked about in my church felt like the kind of love that an abusive husband demands from his wife as he stands over her with a raised fist.
But many years and several church experiences later, I have realized that image was wrong, and in fact God would rather hold us than smite us. I have found a home in a non-denomination church that teaches love and service of our fellowman in a spirit of humility, not judgment. The only difference between a believer and a non-believer is their faith--no human is more worthy of the love of God than any other, no matter how "holy" or "better than you" they pretend to be.
No, I don't have all the answers to the difficult questions, but I know that God does, and I trust His answers.