Dear God, Dear Child...

Dear God,
Why Can I not find the faith and connection that you are waiting for me to find?
How do I make my part of the connection you want for us?
You have given me so very much, shown so many signs of your love and supervision, but I refuse to
look at them, to really see them...
Oh Heavenly Father, give me the strength to separate me from my demons, please invade me
Please save me, please help me to save me...
I have done so many wrongs to myself and to others,
I have been so very selfish...
Please God, be with me through all of this,
and carry me when I can no longer walk...
I feel like I continually hold myself back,
that I create the bars and the boundaries...
God what is your plan for me?
I believe that there is one, I feel that in my heart....
I pray that you show it to me
I pray that I pay attention and notice it....

Dear Child,
I am waiting for you and always have been. I have known you since the beginning of time
and you are so very special to me. It is easy and natural to find and make a connection with me.
Just reach out and I will be there, I am always there. As many times as you refuse me, deny me,
act against me, I will and have always accepted you. I have always and will always love you, because
you are so very dear to me, so very unique. If you ask me sincerely and genuinely for my forgiveness,
I will and have already given it to you. You can always be honest with me about everything.
Send your thoughts, your worries, your anger, your hurt, your embarrassment, your joy, your thanks
to me
Relieve your aching soul
I will always be with you, I will carry you, will walk beside you, will be inside your heart...
You have a plan and when the time is right and you are ready,
it will be shown to you
I love you, I loved you first and will love you last, I love you throughout eternity
I love you in a way that no one else can, will, or has.
remember that...and that it is in your hands to be with me.
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2 Responses May 24, 2012

It would be nice if we could hear God's voice personally. Adam, the first human, had that precious privilege, but he lost it due to disobedience and sin. ( Gen. 1:28-30). Moses wanted to see God, but noticed what the sc<x>riptures say, 'And he added: "You are not able to see my face, because no man may see me and yet live. " ' Gen. 33:20. The sc<x>riptures speak of a time when mankind will live on the earth in paradise in perfection. (Psalms 37:29). Then under those same conditions that Adam and Eve enjoyed, we may be able to hear God's voice.

When I talk to God, I talk to him as if he's a human being/best friend. I don't really get on my knees and hum or roll my eyes in the back of my head while in prayer. I just sit down and talk to him about almost everything the story said to give to him, such as embarrassments, my anger, my sadness, my worries, my thanks, etc. I talk about EVERYTHING to him. I may as well becuase he already knows what I feel inside and out. I also don't feel so condemned when I tell things to him that may shock another person. He is just right. The only downside is that I wish I can hear God reply back in his own voice, rather than sending me people, or see a message somewhere else. I would like an interaction.