I Thought It Would Be Easy.

I went through all that trouble and beatings. I started wearing mascarra to mask the black eye, because I wanted to give my life to God. But only now I realize that it isn't as easy as I thought it would be. My life is filled with mistakes and aweful memories and maybe always will be. How can God forgive me for some of the things that happened in my life. Infact how can anyone? I would really like to talk to somebody about what happened in my past so that maybe just that one person could understand what I went through and still go through, but I am not sure if anyone will want to listen to my sobby life story and frankly I don't blame them.
Monja101 Monja101
18-21, F
4 Responses Dec 1, 2012

what happened in your life?

Let's just say I made a lot of mistakes...

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Hello Monja

If one believes Jesus and trusts in His atonement for the forgivness of sins then there is only one sin that they should fear and that is blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. Many people find it very dificult to believe in the depth of forgivness that can be accessed through Jesus because of the dificulty they have in forgiving themselves. Remember Monja that our thoughts are not Gods thoughts. Scripture says "There is a way that man thinks is good but it is the way that leads to death" and again God says in scripture " my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways" The confidance we can have in the Atonement of the Messiah Jesus must be based on our confidance in His rightiousness not in our measure of our own rightiousness. Because we do not justify our own slavation by our rightiousness but by believing in and trusting in the rightiousness of Jesus.

Monja please place your sence of security in Jesus not in yourself. Know that God has forgiven you this will help you forgive yourself and in turn that will help you forgive others.

Please feel free to contact me via internal message system if you want to talk more.

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As a grandfather i am a good listener, check my profile first and send me a private message as you cannot be contacted due to your age.