The Karma I've Had In This Life

now my life hasn't been great but to be honest i've brought it on myself. i used to steal very often. i'd steal anything if i thought i could use it or sell it for something, not because of a drug addiction or anything like that, it was only because i enjoyed stealing. when i was in high school i stole items and sold it for money so i could start selling weed. i wanted weed dealing to be a regular thing. about two or three months into doing this i got caught for stealing and had to pay five hundred dollars just to have the charges dropped. should have learned then right? nope i was too hard-headed. when i went overseas i stole even more than i did before because i was a supply specialist for the U.S. Army. when i got back i lost just about all the stuff i stole or helped steal, my money got wasted on dumb stuff because of impulse buying and my car, that i paid for in cash, got completely totaled after a year after i bought it. did i learn then? nope, lol. at the time when i came back from overseas with all the money i had i went into pot dealing and employee theft. i worked at bars and i found any way to steal supplies or cash when i worked these places and deal as much weed as i possibly could. bad karma constantly kept coming but i never paid attention. people would screw me over, things would happen that would make me lose money constantly and i could never explain why they would happen. when my car finally got smashed into where the passenger door was not even able to open i started to pay attention. my type of karma and the energy that i have accumulated through past lives has been so bad that it's to a point where if i don't change i could end up ruining my life completely. so i quit stealing, i quit dealing, i quit trying to scheme for money because i thought it was fun and quick. my life is improving slowly because of it. it's harder to try and live life honestly but i'm better because of it.