I Killed The Woman I Love Twice.

I killed the woman I love twice.
the first time I killed her in my mind. The second time I killed her when I tlod her about it. Why did I kill her for the first time. I don't really know. I woke up one day and in my mind I felt she was dead. Why did I kill her for the second time because I'm a scum. Why did I kill her why didn't I kill myself instead. and now she's gone she said "I'm already dead it wouldn't bother you would it?". She said "I hate you. I don't care about you any more because I'm really dead for real". Please someone kills me because I don't deserve to live.
fallingappart fallingappart
22-25, M
Dec 7, 2011