I Believe In Love
why is it so complicated all the time? I've learned that love is both the greatest thing in the world and the most painful thing in the world too. I've had so many ups and downs with this in my life. I've found love again, but it seems that all my "baggage" from the past is getting in the way, which I figured it would. I know we both probably have some, but I have alot. Maybe I have too much to maintain a realationship cause she thinks I have too high of standards, but I don't think I do. I think I'm pretty simple, love me and be honest with me, and show that you love me. That's not alot, is it? I guess all the small things probably bug her though. To me it's nothing. I was married for four years and was never shown the love that I'm getting now, it makes me wonder what I was doing, or maybe I just never found the right girl until now, but she seems to think that she isn't good enough for me. I'm affraid that she doesn't want to communicate with me any of her issues or problems and it's going to complicate things too much. The last week was kinda hard on us with both of us being sick, she lost her job, and I've been overly emotional about my daughter. I feel that I've fallen in love with her and she doesn't want me anymore already. Things seem fine, but maybe she is just looking for a wa out, that's usually what they all do to me, but I really believe that she will be different, why else would I drive over four hours to see her, I love her too much. I fell in love with her before even meeting her, I think that is saying a whole lot about her, I just wish she would see and open up to me.
