You are so rich,
Forget and forgive;
Run into my hair,
You are not alone anymore.
"I remember that," said Laura looking at the metal plank with carved words on it. "You sent me this poem after first month of our anniversary," she continued. "It was 20 years ago. Fall..... I was 27 and so much in love with you. Seems like it was yesterday. Whole day telegrams were coming every hour one after the other with the same words. I just could not understand what and why should I forget and forgive. I was so worried that you would leave me."
"My father did the same to my mother," replied Paul. "She told me once that it was the most beautiful thing which had ever happened to her. She said that, she knew instinctively that day for sure that she would be with my father forever."
“Destiny”,a small holiday ship was slowly passing by Hudson River. It was a late afternoon. Just like a lazy sunny Indian Summer day. They were only the two of them with the crew on the boat. They were sitting sank in light at the back on the open deck.
"Why did you call me here?" She asked and continued,"I had to cancel all my life in London. I just made myself disappear in 2 hours and nobody knows where I am."
"New York never sleeps just like my love for you," he answered.
"Then it was your career," she started again. "New books. New promotions. And your readers. We really spent together only a few months and I wanted you so badly."
"You are always on my mind, Laura," said Paul and added, "First thing in the morning and last thing before I go to sleep. Everything what I wrote was about you. Do you remember this from Alchemy of words? I wrote it while thinking of you."
Shawn walked quietly into the main chamber. North Bay castle was rising from the darkness into the morning brisk. War with Demigods was over. Almost 2 years on the road came to an end. Many accomplished masters vanished in the battle. Only the strongest survived. The spell of Diamond Way remained unbroken. Compassion over the violence finally brought peace to the Land Of Spirits. Shawn came closer to the fireplace and stretched his hands over the flames.
"You are still waiting," he said looking into the face of sun.
"Yes, my Master. I never stopped for a second," replied Amber drowned into darkness.
"Did you cry?" Shawn asked.
"I carried on, as you told me to," answered Amber.
"Do you understand that I can see every iota of your thoughts and your true nature?" He asked again disappointed.
"You always do," she whispered quietly.
"I felt every tear of yours in my heart and heard each song calling me for early come back home," said Shawn placing his hands over the fireplace and hiding his head in his arms. "It was quite difficult to focus," he whispered.
"My apologies, Sir," said Amber.
"Is everything the same way as I left?" He asked after a while looking again into the flames.
"Yes Sir." She replied. "Nothing was changed and everything was carried on."
"Why is there a new lock in the stable?" He asked.
"I had a vision where I saw a broken lock and how it caused disturbances which is why I ordered for replacements," replied Amber.
"What happened to your eyes?" He asked.
"When the battle in Grave Yard began, I heard the voice telling me that you will be tempted by Omniscience Dakinies and would be killed," answered Amber. "Without your permission, I practiced inner and outer Tantra to change the outcome of battle and I lost my sight. My eyes are dull but I can change that."
"No you can’t. You know that. You disobeyed but your intention was pure," announced Shawn. "You should not suffer for that."
He inserted his finger into the fire, tied flame around it and said, "Wo sh na a ta."
"Thank you, my Lord," she whispered.
"Now you can see future, past and present with no obstructions. Make good use of it," he told her touching his head.
"What about the hair?" He asked again.
"I washed my hair in the morning mist and tied them up thinking that it would please you," replied Amber.
"You are always pleasing me," he replied. "Your wisdom was all the time present with me. Come into my light as I want you to feel the joy of our victory. The war is over. So, you can leave the protective circle."
He spread his hands over the fire surrounding it saying," Al sha nan tah."
"Yes, my Master, love is what protects us, love is my Master," she repeated after him and bright light filled all the space.
"Help me take out the armor. I am tired of protecting myself," asked Shawn.
She stood behind him and slowly, very gently started untying all the knots, washing all the spells and carving into his skin, restoring youth mantras.
"So many scars! My love," she said trying to stay calm.
"War is not a walk in the park, my Princess," said Shawn and continued, "But the Diamond way - the Way of Compassion prevails. We absorbed all the hatred and anger and responded with love and compassion. They had no chance but to surrender. Even the darkest soul craves for love. I did that fearlessly knowing that you will appreciate my effort for our better future and new life which would come soon to our family."
"Yes, my lord," said Amber. 'I am deeply touched with what you did.'
"I want to see you now the way I like the most," said Shawn and turned towards her. She appeared naked in front of him.
They were adjoined together in the lotus position searching each others eyes. Face to face. Chest to chest. Thighs to thighs.
"I missed you Princess, so much!" Shawn muttered after awhile. "Your voice, your smell, your touch. The way how you eat, comb your hair, walk, sit, and smile. I missed everything. I saw you everywhere. Every day was like torture without you. Kiss me. Kiss me more. Pour your kisses on me. Let me disappear in your softness. I feel like home. I feel am home again. How did you miss me?"
"You never left, my Lord," replied Amber. "You were with me all the time. I was talking to you all the time doing my daily chores. Asking you how things should be done, asking you how they should be done the way you want the most. Listening to your advises. Pleasing you.... She was crying for you all the time. She wanted you to be inside, filling her completely. She was waiting and waiting and crying all the time. I felt incomplete. I could not find my own place. I was lost without you."
Flames were dancing all around. The space was filled with colors, changing constantly and bringing new understandings. All around just disappeared. They were hanging in the air pleasing and teasing, inspiring and admiring, eating each other and feeding each other. They were diving in each other and immersing in one another as if in fresh water. They were tying and untying, mixing and exchanging, pressing into each other and letting it go in the most unexpected and desirable way. Their arms and hands and lips were traveling and exploring and loving. In the end, he whispered in her ear," I love you. I love you, Spark!"
"I remember everything you wrote," said Laura. "Your words gave meaning to my life. The book was the best seller. You left for 6 months on the tour to promote your new baby and I did not see you at all."
"I talked to you every day," replied Paul.
"Yes. You were away for sure," she said. "I remember when we met for the first time, you spent 3 weeks with me. You had me at the first night and next I felt like I have nothing to offer. Do you know that all these years - from the day one I was on pills waiting that maybe today is the day when you would show up? I wished to be ready all the time when you wanted me. You wanted my body. That is all what I have and I gave it to you all. And when you got tired, you moved on. It lasted 3 amazing weeks and in the end, I found a message on the napkins by my bed.- Sorry! I have a meeting with the readers in Vienna tomorrow. I will call you."
"I wrote - Forget and forgive - because I wanted apologies for the future," said Paul, "for all the pain which I will possibly cause you."
"No worries," said Laura. "It was worth it. I wouldn't miss anything."
"There was nobody else all the time, only you" Paul said looking in her eyes.
"Hmm", she said smilingly. "Anyways, honestly what am I doing here?"
"I rented this ship because I would like to ask you something." said Paul.
"What is that?" asked Laura.
"Would you marry me?"
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