Don't Kill MeWar with my brother :
Please, don’t kill me with your words.
War with my sister:
Safe me from your acts.
War within my family:
Never hit me again.
War with my neighbour:
Don’t hate me anymore.
War in my clan, my world, my home:
Please let me stop this war.
I don't have them.
I am out of words.
I am thinking about you. All the time.
You have so many faces. And I don’t know who you are.
I see here only letters and pictures. And I don’t know who are you. I know You are You. Love. I love you.
Thinking about you over and over again.
I am not sure what day it is or what hour. But I know you are there.
Loving you the way I know the best. Through the art, through my words, through my openness and no judgment.
Email. I got an email it is from You. And you are? Hm. You are You. And this is your email.
“You are a bad polish man!!! Well, it is Remembrance Day for all the British people. World war - 1, World war - 2 and now Afghanistan, Iraq - Please put a post up tomorrow to honor them dead or alive.”
Thinking – 5 seconds, 10 seconds. Writing back.
“Please write it for me. I have no idea what to write. Give me some thoughts and I would do that. When I finish, be on standby and check if you like it.
I am not bad. I am gorgeous. Yes, I am Polish and Love making is 24/7 on my mind.”
Send. Maybe she won't the reply. What to do now? Well, why me? How does my opinion matter? I don’t celebrate anything. I don’t know how. But after a while, it appeared to me - why not me? And usually I am doing things if I am asked for them .
Anyway,"How is it?" Like, go to the war and die. Leave everything, all the future, the loved ones and go to serve your country. I am afraid to say that but I think I wouldn't be able to do that. Because it is so, those who can do that, I think they are heroes beyond measure. They deserve the best. But at the same time, I am asking myself - why? Why do we have wars? And why we were taught and are obliged to leave our families and go to unknown places and kill and die? To kill somebody who is running in front of me, just because he is enemy. Not knowing him at all. Kill all the time and work, which was put to make him who he is. All of the mothers sacrifice, all of the teachers sacrifice, all of the society sacrifice. Just kill it. Unbelievable ! How come God is OK with that?
And just think of those mothers and families waiting for their kids who fight in foreign lands. And their grief when they receive the worst news and the life after that. Why is this designed this way? Does It has to be like that? We can go to Mars but we can’t stop wars. Why?
Strange world !
On one side, we try to provide the best health systems, to produce the most nutritious food, to have the best healthy life styles and save every life. On another side, we send our best people to kill and the worst to die. It is interesting that, saving a cat trapped in a pipe can generate the compassion and attention of thousands of TV viewers but the reports from the war zone and about dead don’t make much impact anymore.
I got it. She sends it back. I guess it is important. And she writes:
“k put a post up do u remember the britsh forces who liberared aushwitz and beyond and now we are figting awar in iraq and afghistan world war one world war2 it was aworld war/. i love making love im gypsy but illever forget the price my nation ..britsh have paid. put a post on”
Yea. British are OK. I like them. I always liked ones that are more intelligent than me. They are classy and I always felt that they are higher than me - higher in a good way. Like somebody, whom you can admire and follow and learn from. I like Queen too. I think she represents the values and I remember that Sex Pistols had a great song about her. Like God save the Queen and …tralalala.
Hey, wait a second. I think that Auschwitz was abandoned by German soldiers on January 21, 1945. I remember they were afraid of the Russians' offensive and hence escaped trying to clean up behind them as much as possible. On the morning of 27th of January when the Russian came the camp was already free. I guess, if British would have done that then we wouldn’t have communism in Poland for almost 40 years after.
OK, I have to say it. And that is why I think that British are better than me. See, alike Brits they would never say what I will say next.
For over 40 years, British were claiming, that they broke Enigma code. You know, the Secret Code which was used by Germans during Second World War in order to communicate. Because of that, the English knew everything what the Germans were planning and doing and war could be won this way. Yea, great. There is only one problem - it is the Polish did that. The Polish broke the Enigma and passed it to the Brits and never asked for any gratification. It was the matter of honour for them not to seek the glory over such a discovery. Of course, the British somehow forgot to admit how has this happened. Just a few years ago, I found in the news, that some Poles got medals as reward for what they did with Enigma plus a public "thank you" for their commendable work.
The British are great but they left the Poles alone when Hitler attacked our country. We had the treaty which was signed just before the war. They promised, that they will come and protect us and fight with us against the Germans like brothers in arms. It didn’t happen. The English didn’t want to die for the Polish people and I totally understand that. No hard feelings. Just history.
I was overwhelmed with joy when I heard that peace process between England and Ireland was finalized. I said, "Yes that is how developed beings behave." It was the biggest victory of the century for me. The path was shown for others, how things should go. I was just wondering - why, why so long and why so many precious lives were lost. Why the killing if the end is always inevitable. And the end is peace. Peace always was, is and will be in the end. No doubts.
So many people died in Auschwitz. So many innocent ones. Just because they did not fit the category 0f worthy of being alive. They were considered as a lower class and not even humans. Can you imagine that? I just can’t.
We used to have school trips to Auschwitz for educational purposes'. We saw the barracks, the crematoriums, and chambers. All so real, so present. They showed us movies. We saw bulldozers pushing bodies over the ground. Hundreds, hundreds of bodies - well not even bodies, just bones covered with skin. Pushing them and piling them. You had the feeling, that these bodies are just like wooden chips. Like they were ******** of any human value. Just like the wood and this smiling guy pushing it nicely into piles before they would be burnt. You could name this picture – 'Busy Day on the Job.'
I had the same feelings when I was around 7 years old and jumping around happily with friends. At that time, I was taken to the church amphitheater to watch a movie about Jesus. It was a movie with full and detailed desc
Just that I can’t get it why somebody would say openly that he doesn’t believe that killing took place. Why? For me it is like saying that the Sun is not bright. I think these people don’t want to know the truth or don’t care about it. Most of the time, I think they know but they just try to provoke people. I wouldn’t be provoked if somebody would call me a girl knowing for sure that I am a man. But I understand that there is always a line somewhere there.
I was wondering as well, about the so called "freedom of speech". In some extremely civilized countries, where freedom of speech was never a problem, suddenly there came a movement to protect it. Like there would be an unknown danger if certain things won’t be published.
I say,"No ways." If you are ready to publish some materials, with little value from the artistic point of view or material which has actually no value, knowing that this will bring unease, it is just another provocation. In my opinion, it has not much to do with the freedom of speech. You don’t have to print stupid stuff knowing, that it would cause problems. You can do that and this is your freedom, but you don’t have to do it to prove that you have it. Like, because of freedom of speech you don’t tell your wife that she gained a few pounds. If something is Holy for somebody, it is better to keep it the same way. There are thousands of other subjects on which you can joke about in every culture, if you only wish to give it some though and try to learn about it.
And saying, "Hey ! but we do the same with other religions." This is not a good reason to do it. If your boss will tell you,"Listen my friend, I think I am dumb and stupid. Would you tell him "Ooo yea, you are so stupid?" I am sure not. Then saying because something that has already happened here that can happen here, simply doesn’t make sense. On the other side, these who are provoked shouldn’t come and kill these who provoke them. But this is more obvious to me.
Now I remember what my mother told me 3 days before she passed away due to stomach cancer. It was already 3 months from the moment when she started to die. I was sitting by her side, holding her hand. It was quiet. She couldn’t talk too much. Suddenly, with no reason that I know of, she became more awake and said, “There is only one thing which I am going to miss. I will never see the peace between the Palestine and Israel”. I have no idea why she said that. We have never talked about that subject before. I hope I will see that.
I have a friend on skype. He is in Afghanistan now. I can feel what it means to be there. He has only one dream. To be back home as soon as possible.
Yes, every war is terrible, every violence is tragical, every loss of life is unforgivable. Those who sacrifice their lives for us, to let us live in a free society and have full chance to express ourselves, are the best of the best. They deserve the full respect and the best care when they come back home. They are role models for the others because of their selfless sacrifice. No words here can express the gratitude which I have for them. All the best on Remembrance Day Britain. I salute you.
I am not with anybody. I am not against anybody. I am just saying.