Declaration Of Love....

We met when we were 19 him and me. We both had taken up volunteering for an N.G.O as a favor to my friends mom who was short of volunteers.All of us friends pitched in and got our other friends with us to assist in the noble cause. There i was introduced to my boyfriend for the very first time.We were teens at that time, i was according to him "very pretty" and for me he was the guy who was just a tad bit better than the rest.I was always very shy and never went out of my way to speak to anyone. I always had a problem getting used to people.We never spoke to each other, just faint glances, not even smiles, i looking at him when he wasn't and same with him.All the days we worked together not a word or even an occasional smile was exchanged.Then the day came when we were to part,we all knew it was our last day at work and all left for a local joint to eat and celebrate the success of the project.When it was time to leave we both looked at each other face to face for the very first time, that was it...i left and that was the end of him and me at that point. Both of us went on to live our lives, i graduated from my law school he travel-led around the country for his studies, both of us had even forgotten each others names. I went on to date a guy who i was madly in love with, i thought i had met the person i wanted to be with for the rest of my life, i was so in love i never knew it was not going to last , i did not know that life had other plans for me, i was so comfortable in my own reality i did not even want to think of any such possibility!!!!! but what had to happen did happen, i had a huge fight after which i ended up broken hearted. I was so heart broken, and in such excruciating pain i did not ever even dare to think i would be happy again,i spent miserable nights crying all by myself.Later after a year i had logged into my face book account, i saw a pic in which a guy seemed familiar, i remembered this was the very guy who i had a crush on several years back. Then what- i sent a request and we started speaking. He was the first to tell me that he had a huge crush on me and that he wanted to stay in touch but did not know how to contact me. While chatting up on fb we fell in love and now after a year i cant be grateful to life.Yes i had lost the ability to love cause i was heart broken once but my boyfriend was very patient, he healed me in many ways.That sad sad feeling that grips you and squeezes your heart when a person abandons you, that feeling has disappeared, i dont feel angry anymore. I just feel lucky for all that has happened.Thank god that i gave life a chance and that i did not let my demons get me down....
love you my sunshine.
muah muah....
pmser pmser
22-25, F
Jan 15, 2013