Beautiful, Warm, And Inviting Bright Pale Yellow LightI'm not really sure if this is a near death experience but I will share what happen.
After my second child was delivered I had lost a lot of blood because of my placenta. I was put into the recovery room and I started feeling very cold. I wanted to tell the nurse to get me a blanket but the words wouldn't come out. I could hear her talking to someone saying the blood pressure thing? was not working. She got another one and took it again. I remembered her saying it was 40/20 and to page the doctor. I was still trying to tell her I was freezing and needed a blanket now. She didn't hear me. I kept closing my eyes and then I started to see this beautiful light and it was drawing me in. As I felt it getting closer, I started feeling warm and warmer. I was really feeling peaceful but then my mind started fighting the light because I started to think about my mother who had died two weeks after childbirth from a blood clot and then we didn't have a mother. I kept thinking no no I can't leave my little 5 year old and my new baby I have to get away from that light. Next, as I started to strongly resist the light I started getting cold again. I don't think it lasted more than a minute or two at the most. When the doctor came, I heard them discussing the drop in blood pressure and how pale I looked. Right after that, they finally heard me asking for a blanket. It might have been shock because I had lost over 2 pints of blood. After that I decided that was my last child because I believed I wouldn't be so lucky the next time. The funny thing is I had natural childbirth and the delivery went super smooth. MY husband who was on his second day at new job left to go back to work after our son was delivered. This incident happened after he left and I never felt more alone.
rosey122 56-60, F 6 Responses 3 Aug 20, 2010