Spiritual Connection

I draw these pictures of a yellow creature the eyes are blue and so is her blood also with black lips, looks kind of cat like and I have a very strong connection with her. This feeling has been with me for a long time and I don't remember when it came about. I keep the connection going by drawing the pictures and it makes me feel good that she is there and that our spirits will be joined together when the time comes.

Do i sound crazy?