When I Finally Fell In Lovei didnt actually fall in love until my 30's and what i experienced really blew my mind. while i fell in love with my husband, what i really experienced was not at all a creation of his and mine. it wasnt romance or wooing. it didnt grow out of wishes, fantasies or promises. something about his presence in my life at that time, caused me to experience something completely unknown and unexpected. it was like tapping into a bigger thing that simply is. it was a like an expansive surging electrical current. it was the experience of unconditional love and it was much bigger than me and him. i felt closer to the source of my creation than i had ever imagined i could.
recently, research has reported that the chemicals in our brains that cause us (and i would argue, coincide) with our falling in love, lasts about a year. and that was how long that kind of magic lasted.
love between us has grown in many ways over the years. and it has done so despite many odds and differences. marriage really does become a series of compromises. and that blissful state is no longer readily accessible to me. i know that it is still there, and likely an eternal thing we may never really grasp in this world. im really grateful that i have had a taste of that gift. it is my top experience in life.
kittten 46-50, F 5 Responses 7 Feb 5, 2008