Time To Say Goodbye....

All I want to do is go...i can't seem to keep promises to myself...I just want to leave, my mom said they are claiming the world will end this week and I actually got excited...then I thought no one else should suffer...I want to help all that are sick or need organs...I want to give every bit of me away...so everyone else who wants to live can live with these good organs...im not sick, im obese...but the doctors say im healthy as heck except for the tear in my ankle im good to go...my husband wants a divorce...the guy i met online is too far away to meet and too poor to get onto a plane to see me...i support my mom...but i dont want to be here any more...i want to die...i just want to die...why in the hell must i live..to sign his paperwork while he enjoys life with is kids..his fiance that is half his age...why...i just want to go...i know i sound like a drama queen...but i have never been more serious in my life...i just want out. He won't care..the only tears at my funeral will be my moms...but she will be fine...im sorry..i have to go....i just want to go...what kind of deity would allow someone to continue to live that just wants out...but i cannot blame them...im to chicken to just slit my wrists or more...i just want the courage to get the hell out............pls
Lastcall666 Lastcall666
31-35
Dec 9, 2012