Looking For True Happiness

I can honestly say that in all my life I've never known what true happiness is.  I've had moments of pure joy and that was only when I gave birth to my children.  They are a gift from god.  But other than having them I have never held true happiness in my hands.  I wonder what it would be like to have that.  I have a husband that loves me but I don't share those feelings.  Its not his fault its all on me.  My children give me moments of joy but what I want is to know what its like to be completely happy.  I have tried and I always fall short of it.  Its as if I'm not meant for it.  I guess some people are just luckier than others.  It is what it is.... We do what we do.... What's done is done... Its all good!!!!!!!
lonelyheartofmine lonelyheartofmine
41-45, F
4 Responses Feb 7, 2011

All whiteboard comments aside my son is the only reason I am still alive. He is pure joy. Handsome, smart, happy,well behaved. He is the Only thing kept me going through the Divorce and Business failure. Don't know what I did right to be blessed with him but If nothing else goes right in my life as long as he is OK so am I AB

Hmmmm . . . I am unable to offer any real advice that could apply to you because I am lacking knowing where it is you are coming from and what you are in need of that really, Really gets down to the heart of the matter. The best I can do as relay an example that may just only apply to me and not be very helpful to you, but I will give it a shot. When I can't find my way to happiness, and I mean I am at the lowest low of what passes for living, Here's what I have done (or had happened to me before)Let everything fall apart! Let go, blow it up, smash it or whatever, just let it all come down. I don't know how you would go about that when you need to provide a stable environment for your family. What the point is when you let everything in your life come down, your hurt and sadness will come down also. Sometimes picking up the pieces is better to do than to try to keep a hold of everything together. When I say better, I don't mean easier to do, it is difficult and scary because as the pain has gone, it is replaced with uncertainty of the outcome of the future for you. So I understand that you may not actually try it and I'll work on finding another option to suggest. In the meantime I am sure you have some temporary coping methods. So for now Feliz' Navidad!!! (I have no idea what it means but I felt like saying it. Well actually I know what it means but I was worried it portrays me as a bit odd that I would want to say that when i am clearly wearing shoes. Huh? later)

You know, happniess is a choice,,,,I use to have the same feeling, even I was doing my best to work more hours better than I go home, but at one point I said to myself enough is enough

I think happiness is a state of mind or feeling characterized by contentment, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy.............God bless you...........:)