...but They Leave For A Reason As Well.

I'm sure anyone could relate to me on this. People come and people go. We can't change the past but we can only change the future. Life isn't fair, it wasn't meant to be. Nothing good in life is easy and nothing good last forever.

Just... Think of it. So much pain in this world. So much hatred so much death. People come in to our lives to either make us stronger or try and rip us apart.

There's one person I really hope who will read this. I really hope you understand how badly I want to see you. You came in my life for a reason and I want to show you I'm thankful for you. I want you to see I love you and I want you to experience that.

It killed me, that comment you made about dying soon as possible.

It made me think of something I always tell suicidal people.
"Can't you see how selfish that is? These people who are left behind suffer more than you will. Once you die you won't have to see their pain. And that pain is always going to be there because there isn't that many happy memories to replace. Don't die. Live, and make happy memories with those people.
That way, when you do die, they have those happy memories to look back on and make them smile. If their memories are happy, they'll move on past your death sooner because they won't be even more depressed from not having made those memorie."

I saw someone post this as a confession on here once
"Look at the stars tonight, try and count them all. I miss you that much. When you go to the beach, try to count every grain of sand. I trust you that much. When you go in the water, try and count each drop of water in the ocean. I need you that much. When your heart beats, try and count each and every beat for a day. I love you that much."

Those words are so true... One of the moments I wonder why I didn't think of it first...

I love you, and I want to be with you in the months you have left here... And I won't be able to let go if you keep trying to push me away because it'll just hurt worse...
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2 Responses Nov 11, 2012

Be strong for her Vic, no matter how hard she tries to push you away don't go away. She loves you and you love her. Stay strong for her in her last moments.

She loves you. I can tell. You're a lucky girl to be with a woman like her. Do what you can for her. I'm sure she's in pain, no? Comfort her in her darkest hours. Give her hope. When you do, you'll find you have hopes yourself. I truly wish the best for you Vic.