I Believe People Come Into Your Life For a Reason
I've not written a story for over a year. blogs, yes. but not stories.
it's only been recently that i've felt an urge to get back into EP...provided that i can get past/over all the changes that have come about since i was last involved in EP. so...with that...here's a story :)
People coming into my life for a reason. What reason? What makes them stay? better question...what makes them leave? which they seem to be doing in masses lately.
I've debated on deleting some past stories about the military air force man i was involved with. i can't read them again. too painful right now. I would really love to know what HIS purpose was for being in my life...when in the end, he left it. no longer a part of my life. although he said 'you're a wonderful person, if there's anything you need..." seriously?! NOW you want to be there for me?! sorry, that's not happening. the only thing i wanted from you, you've taken away. So really....what was HIS purpose in my life? bc i would really love to know that all this crap and pain for the past 2 years had a purpose.
then we come to the friend part...the friends i've been hanging out with for the past year...i introduce them to each other and they become best friends...basically ending up leaving me out. i can see my purpose to bring them together i suppose, but seriously...that just leaves me essentially by myself. we've all had good times together, sure...but if, in the end, i get left in the dust...why the hell were they in my life to begin with??
and that's just my girl friends...which, there is a reason i don't have friends who are girls anyway bc they can't be trusted....but even my guy friends are being all weird lately too.
I guess it's really true...when you hit rock bottom, you find out who your friends are....turns out, i don't have many. which doesn't do anything except drive me further into a depression...a vicious cycle.
i really need people to come into my life for a POSITIVE reason now...not so they can leave later, but someone to stick around...that would be nice for once.
it's only been recently that i've felt an urge to get back into EP...provided that i can get past/over all the changes that have come about since i was last involved in EP. so...with that...here's a story :)
People coming into my life for a reason. What reason? What makes them stay? better question...what makes them leave? which they seem to be doing in masses lately.
I've debated on deleting some past stories about the military air force man i was involved with. i can't read them again. too painful right now. I would really love to know what HIS purpose was for being in my life...when in the end, he left it. no longer a part of my life. although he said 'you're a wonderful person, if there's anything you need..." seriously?! NOW you want to be there for me?! sorry, that's not happening. the only thing i wanted from you, you've taken away. So really....what was HIS purpose in my life? bc i would really love to know that all this crap and pain for the past 2 years had a purpose.
then we come to the friend part...the friends i've been hanging out with for the past year...i introduce them to each other and they become best friends...basically ending up leaving me out. i can see my purpose to bring them together i suppose, but seriously...that just leaves me essentially by myself. we've all had good times together, sure...but if, in the end, i get left in the dust...why the hell were they in my life to begin with??
and that's just my girl friends...which, there is a reason i don't have friends who are girls anyway bc they can't be trusted....but even my guy friends are being all weird lately too.
I guess it's really true...when you hit rock bottom, you find out who your friends are....turns out, i don't have many. which doesn't do anything except drive me further into a depression...a vicious cycle.
i really need people to come into my life for a POSITIVE reason now...not so they can leave later, but someone to stick around...that would be nice for once.
By:
KinkyFlower
Age:
31-35
,
Female
