No Pain No GainI don't even want to go into how long i have "sucked-it-up" when it comes to my pains and troubles. I just get busy .... get and go thingy. I post something like that here somewhere. hmm
Sooo, for the past few days, i have opened the flood gates of my heart. I "felt" the pain, i then listened to my inner voice when i shouted out for Help.
My greatest desire in life is to be loved and given some kind of attention. I am needy. ....past ghost, yup! Anyways.....After praying, pondering, crying, begging for an answer... I got it! ...Which made me cry even more. huh
My inner voice said..." Not now, it is time for other things. Like lets start with you... your inner peace that you should be feeding to yourself." I broke down seeing how needy i am. The desire to be loved... loving someone else, the need of it all.... has taken away from caring for myself and knowing me all over again... hmmm. Or maybe for the first time in my life... getting to know me! Caring for no one else, just Me time!
Heck, i have never been here... just worring over little ol' me... ok?... Always been busy caring and doing for others. Now i am alone. wow...
So... I thank the Heavens for the purging of these tears and pain i am doing these days. I got a feeling i will be dealing with these ghosts of days gone by alittle longer. ...huh... I best go get some boxes of Puffs. *smile*
MorningBreeze 56-60, F 7 Responses 2 Oct 15, 2010