This Really Hit Me Straight Home...My birthday was a few days ago and I was so sad on my birthday night. I was on the verge of tears. The only thing that comforted me was the thought of suicide.
Not long during that, Carnivorous messaged me asking me if I could go on Skype in a little bit with him and LordNothing. I thought we would be doing a group chat, but to my surprise, LordNothing turns on the web cam and I see the both of them there together. They threw me a web cam birthday party!
I'm not going to lie, they don't know this, but I was trying so hard not to cry on web cam, lol. I got so emotional. I never get a party in real life... ever. And I knew that if I was there physically in New South Wales, they probably would have thrown me an actual party, but the web cam party was the best they could do for now. That's why it meant so much to me that they did that. I never felt like my birthday was special or even worth celebrating, but they made it feel special for once. I managed to hide the fact that I got so emotional by being silly and dorky and giggling at everything and nothing. After a while, the lump in my throat finally went down until I no longer felt like I was going to burst into tears and my eyes were no longer watering up and I had fun with them. It wasn't until I had to get off web cam that I finally allowed myself to let a few tears roll before calling Turbulence and spending a couple minutes with him.
They are amazing guys. They really made my birthday night something. I probably would have stayed depressed and suicidal if it weren't for them and I just really hope they know how grateful and appreciative I am of them and how amazing and awesome they really are. I love you guys. :)
Of course, I have other amazing friends on EP I could certainly thank, but there's too many of them to name. I just wanted to tell those friends too that I definitely love you guys so much. I don't know anyone on here personally except for EmilineSorine, but I truly do love you guys for all you've done for me. I wish you guys were here with me or that I was there with you, wherever you guys are.
deadmoon 18-21, F 15 Responses 8 Dec 7, 2011