Tears, Cheers, And Fairytales ( They Do Come True ... You Are Living Proof )

What is love? This is something that I have been thinking about over the last few days especially.  Had I been asked this question years ago you would have heard my “fairytale” answer.  I was looking for my knight to come and save this damsel in distress. I wanted him to ride in on the white steed and carry me off into the sunset.  We would get married and live happily ever after. This was my fairytale period when I believed that love was total and complete bliss.

 But, unfortunately I grew up and discovered that love wasn’t a fairytale and sometimes love hurts.  I lost my foundation of beliefs in love when my heart was ripped apart.  To some of them; how quickly could they get in my panties, and when they couldn’t go they were gone. Simply said, love disappointed me. It was nothing like I had pictured it in my dreams. There was nothing really great about it. I slowly but surely I started to despise the word love. What was the point in it? It seemed to be only a feeling that caused even the sanest person to completely lose their mind and I always ended with my heart broken. I always found myself wondering why people wanted to put themselves through the hopelessness of something not working out in the relationship over and over again. This was my feelings about love.  This is how I felt about love. What good came from it when I was sleeping alone in my bed?  I promised myself I would never fall in love again. I was too scared to take the risk of getting hurt. I know, its life but I couldn’t bear the thought of my whole world revolving in some way around a person. I wanted to be able to be in control of my life and not have someone on my mind the whole time, especially someone that could crush my heart.

Clearly you can see I am completely against love. So why oh why, when you I see your name on my caller ID do I find myself breathless and sighing, my heart beating so fast that I can hear it in my head?  Why, when I hear your voice, does my heart skip a beat and I begin giggling nervously? Why, when I think of our past conversations, can I not stop smiling? Why, when I’m not with you, can I not seem to concentrate on anything and why can I then not stop crying?? Why does anything that has to do with love remind me of you?? And why do I instantly think of you when I think of my future? OMG I now know why.  You happened to me and you are part of my fairytale love.  Exactly what I imagined love to be when I was younger is how I feel. You are the knight and you have stolen my whole heart. How am I supposed to live without a heart? How am I supposed to live without you? Yes, love still hurts but now it is for a different reason.

fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
46-50, F
20 Responses Feb 17, 2010

I love the moon. It brings me peace and resolution.

Ti ho raccontato delle strade che ti portano fino alla luna...<br />
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I have told to you the stories that TAKE YOU TO THE Moon...<br />
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xo

God I have had some of the most consuming loves in my life. Men that were powerful, intelligent, handsome, and strong. I have held some awesome men in my lifetime. I have loved each of them deeply for a season. They all hold a piece of my heart that I will NEVER give to another. I have been very lucky in love in my lifetime.

Oh I did and it scared the hell our of me. lol.

So you were wrong for it huh? LOL

My bad to fall for the Greatest Lady on EP.

Awww thanks sweetie. I would never purposely hurt you or anyone else.

Love hurts when you fall for you as I did :)

Thanks y'all

As I shared with My ~A... <br />
JUST SOMETIMES... FAIRY TALES DO COME TRUE... LIKE SHE AND I... Forever LOVERS... !<br />
<br />
No knights... No "kingly states of charades of damsels distressed" have We... <br />
THOUGH WE DO HAVE EACH OTHER...<br />
WE think of Each other CONTINUALLY... CEASELESSLY... ACHING for Each other.<br />
No one has the capacity to end us to separate us to deprive of us of BEING TOGETHER... forever.<br />
<br />
That Is Love... THIS IS LOVE

My experience has been that if somthing hurts then I need to change somthing that I am doing. This concept is at the core of my believe that pain is a gift from my Dark Mother Goddess...DD

Awww that is so sweet. <br />
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Thanks y'all!

As I shared with My ~A... <br />
JUST SOMETIMES... FAIRY TALES DO COME TRUE... LIKE SHE AND I... Forever LOVERS... !<br />
<br />
No knights... No "kingly states of charades of damsels distressed" have We... <br />
THOUGH WE DO HAVE EACH OTHER...<br />
WE think of Each other CONTINUALLY... CEASELESSLY... ACHING for Each other.<br />
No one has the capacity to end us to separate us to deprive of us of BEING TOGETHER... forever.<br />
<br />
That Is Love... THIS IS LOVE

oh i just seen this now....no it wasn't past my bedtime lol. and at the moment its actually 6:36am and i still havent slept hahaha.

Thanks Andy.

I'm happy to read such a touching story of love. Hope you have your Knight...

Isn't it past your bedtime young lady?

aww ur welcome, and anytime :)

Thanks Ferrett.

awww thats a beautiful story<br />
*hugs*