The Torments Of Absence Part Two

 Him: do not feel lost
~ Chat with Milky, 21 January 2013

In telling me not to do something, he's acknowledging the likelihood that I'm going to do it.  It's just the nature of the beast.  And the thing is that I am pretty darned likely to feel at least a little lost when he's too busy to play.  It's not that I don't have plenty of playmates, both online and in my day-to-day life.  Nor that my life isn't full of fun.  But I am a woman who has grown accustomed to his face.  He almost makes the day begin. 

I'm sure you recognize that paraphrase of Alan Jay Lerner's lyrics, don't you?  They're from the wonderful musical My Fair Lady, which was based on George Bernard Shaw's Pygmalion, which in turn was based on Ovid's Metamorphoses.  Ovid, of course, based his mock-epic poem on Greek mythology.

At the core of it all, from the dawn of time to now, is the theme of love. 

I know you're probably rolling your eyes at this one, but I feel that.  Love.  Yes, it's lust as well.  But there is an element of fond familiarity here that transcends pure physical desire.  It's a meeting of minds, a need to care for someone and be cared for by that someone.  It has nothing to do with nipple clamps or blow jobs or him ******* my *** or I his. 

We're a pair of middle-aged married persons with children whom we adore.  Neither of us wish to hurt our spouses nor our offspring.  But we have emotional needs that those people cannot meet.  We share that D/s dynamic.  It's not a simple thing.  He identifies as a Dom, and I as a switch.  Which means some of the time he'll be doing what comes naturally, asserting his dominance, controlling me, but reassuring me.  And I will revel in his actions, gladly submitting, reliquishing the reins, acknowledging my weakness.  But there will be times I will just flat out tell him what I need, and he will provide that for me.

me‬: you need to go?
Him‬: in just a few yes
will try and catch up over the next few days
it will be a bit crazy
do not feel lost
I am going to X tomorrow
and Y on Wednesday
flying all day on wednesday

me‬: it is a busy week, you're right! 
and you know me too well when you say...
do not feel lost
am I really that obvious?

Him‬: no, I just wanted to prepare you 
cuz my schedule will be busy

me‬: you're like Nestle
making me grow used to the baby formula
and when you take it away
I get all lonely
I'm onto you!

Him‬: yes that is Me
a master mind controller
is it working yet?

me‬:   I'll say.
Him‬: well do not fall for it
I am just a busy guy!

‪me‬: Indeed you are.
as I recall, though....
those airplanes have wifi
I need a fix, fella
try to contact me from up on high, please

Him‬:  I am sure we will be able to connect
especially on Wed day

‪me‬: grand
deal, love

milkynips milkynips
46-50, F
Jan 23, 2013