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I Believe We Attract To Ourselves What We Believe To Be True

Hard To Change A Mindset

By: kayge1
Written on January 25th, 2010

I have struggled with omtting negativity from my life, but there is also something attractive to me about chaos.  Guess it is comfortable because I am used to in growing up in a very dysfunctional family.  I attract people who are disturbed. LOL By the way, I am an Ex-Social Worker. I think that I am a "rescuer" and my identity as a person is tied to what I do.  I don't do anything now. I have been a bum for quite some time now.  I live with a friend and it is a parasitic existence.     See? negativity.  How do I shake this off?  I used to be someone once.   

By: kayge1
Age: 46-50 , Female
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    sunflower101
    sunflower101

    having a sense of humor about it all helps. do wat u can, like the chores and stuff. yr not a parasite; yr lucky to hav a friend that will take u in. better than a homeless shelter. plus time with sum1 u like!

    Jul 10, 2010
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    hykinix
    hykinix

    We all do it, very easy pitfall.



    Best of luck on your unique path!

    Feb 4, 2010
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    kayge1
    kayge1

    I have been thinking about what you said and I agree. Memories are what we make them and I have found myself talking to someone (telling stories, which I like to do) trying to be funny, and have found that what I may have thought of as a bad experience, I can spin in a different way and all of a sudden it is NOT a bad memory.

    I WILL make an effort to forge new connections with people that does not focus on the negativity of my experiences, but rather the humor or the sementality of that particular event.

    Thank you. Simple but important message.

    I have been told that I am too cerebral sometimes, pseudo-intellectualizing my own self. LOL

    Jan 29, 2010
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    hykinix
    hykinix

    You still are someone.



    Catch yourself going back into your memories, your ideas of yourself as a parasite.



    Catch yourself, and then override those ideas with the potential for new beginnings. It is an effort which requires practice, but it is doable.



    Often times, it is not even particular experiences or events that make us negative, but simply our memories of us thinking to ourselves that we are negative.



    Your brain draws connections to concepts. Forge new connections and the negativity will disappear.

    Jan 26, 2010
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