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The story i posted a day ago with the title of "What He Said" Is on my mind. That whole thing happend 5 months ago, and i keep catching myself thinking back to it, and just thinking about chris. It is hard to think i let him go and now I'm back to where started, alone, confused and feeling not loved. I don't want to think about him, and all the bad things he had done to me, and how he made me feel.
I'm going to be honest, and about a 2 weeks ago i ran into him at the mall and when i saw him and he saw me, it was like i was looking at awhole new person. He come up to me and gave me a hug, and said how he has been thinking of me for the past couple weeks. We got into talking about what has he and i been up to, anything new going on in our life and then the question. Are you seeing anybody? Came out of my mouth, and he answered no, that he hasn;t been able to see any girls with a serious relationship when i have been on his mind.
He must have told me about like 15 time how he has change, and apologized to me 20 time about the way he had treated me, and he wanted to treat me right, be their for me when i need, and take it slow.
Something in me fell for his BS, but another part me kept telling me to leave, that he is no good for me. Then he asked if he could my me lunch or a drink.
"I actually have things that need to get done my a certain time," i said and felt shity after words.
"Oh well, maybe some other time. I would really like to get to know you better then what i use too," he said, and he pulled me in for a quick kiss on the lips.
I had forgotten how good it felt to be with him, when he wasn't hurting me, calling me names or forcing me to do things. I don't know if he really has changed or if it;s just and act, and i don't know how to control the thought i have been having.
I dont know what i should do.
I'm going to be honest, and about a 2 weeks ago i ran into him at the mall and when i saw him and he saw me, it was like i was looking at awhole new person. He come up to me and gave me a hug, and said how he has been thinking of me for the past couple weeks. We got into talking about what has he and i been up to, anything new going on in our life and then the question. Are you seeing anybody? Came out of my mouth, and he answered no, that he hasn;t been able to see any girls with a serious relationship when i have been on his mind.
He must have told me about like 15 time how he has change, and apologized to me 20 time about the way he had treated me, and he wanted to treat me right, be their for me when i need, and take it slow.
Something in me fell for his BS, but another part me kept telling me to leave, that he is no good for me. Then he asked if he could my me lunch or a drink.
"I actually have things that need to get done my a certain time," i said and felt shity after words.
"Oh well, maybe some other time. I would really like to get to know you better then what i use too," he said, and he pulled me in for a quick kiss on the lips.
I had forgotten how good it felt to be with him, when he wasn't hurting me, calling me names or forcing me to do things. I don't know if he really has changed or if it;s just and act, and i don't know how to control the thought i have been having.
I dont know what i should do.
By:
Victoria1996
Age:
16-17
,
Female
