Money Can't Buy Love..

I just broke up with a guy I was with for 4+ yrs. It's only been about 4 days, I had to get a restraining order because he would not leave me alone. My mom is making me feel like I'm a loser because the guy has money. Well his money wasn't worth the abuse I had to tolerate on a daily basis. The night before I went for the restraining order he kicked out the bottom of my bedroom door and broke the door jam. Why? He wanted sex, never mind my 10 yr old son was in the living room along with my mother. He got up to lock the door, telling me not to think he wouldn't lock them out. I said NO! I had to fix them dinner. He went bizerk! Yelling horrible things, spitting all over me while yelling at me. Breaking things. Then wants to come back the next day like nothing happened. Every day I had to answer where I was starting at 9am, he stalked me, harassed me, and tried to control my daily life. I had to go by his rules. He was the most jealous, insecure, controlling person Ive ever dealt with. Tonite I know he's out withnanother woman. My mother makes me feel like I'm the loser here because he has a gooD deal of money. She makes me so angry! She's only thinking of what she won't be able to beg and borrow from him now. I don't care how much money he has, I wasn't happy. It wasn't worth the mistreatment and the oppression I felt. So, I don't have money, I'll struggle financially. Some other woman can have thrown in her face every penny he spent on her. Some other woman can have everything he gives taken back or broken, not me, not anymore. It wasn't worth it. I deserve better, I deserve better. I deserve real love, there's not enough money in the world to justify putting up with his mistreatment. Shes telling me, he's got money, he can get whoever he wants. Well good for him. I'll settle for real love, not some dead presidents....thanks mom!
LadyHawke68 LadyHawke68
46-50, F
May 5, 2012