No Not Me. Not I.

It's been two nights since i broke up with him. It's hard not listening to his voice again..before i go to sleep and when i wake up. He filled the gaps in my life. He was my everything.

The nature of my religion does not allow for extra-marital relationships of any sort. But for him, i broke the rules. The ones i've been attached to since as long as i can remember. I don't know why. But he made me feel "me" when i was with him..i didn't have to change in any way.

So how it happened is what you wanna know.

I was on the phone with him, late at night the other day when my brother came in to get something from my room. I didn't know what to do, and i was acting like i had the word GUILTY on my forehead! He had left my room, but came back knowing i was up to something. To make a long story short, he found out and obviously wasn't pleased about it. He made me break up with him immediately. But did he let me call him goodbye? No. I was never to speak to him again. Ever.

My bro called him up, and told him it's over between you and her. I don't know what else he told him, but i'm guessing he was threatened :( so i didn't hear from him ever since..not even an attempt to email me. NOTHING!

I've been feeling like ******* crap these days. I haven't showered. In the same PJs. Don't eat as much.

I swear i miss him so much! :'(

I don't know what to do.

I seriously don't.

I haven't spoken to anyone because nobody knows about it. So, i've been closing in on myself too.

*sigh*