How Do I Take Down This Ever So Growing Wall...

I`m a good person, just have the wrong taste in women, God only knows its the story of my life...especially recently...I fell in love with a girl who was my friend, well she claims shes still my friend...I had already built a wall around my heart and slowly it came down...only to find out she was still in love with her ex-boyfriend...clearly the wall grew bigger, and I`m still so hurt by her choice in words ``I miss my friend, can we please go back to a time before all this had happened.`` Fine, whatever, so I kept pushing forward, I found another girl, been seeing her for 2 weeks now, met family, friends, shes such a good girl, yet I don`t know if I can come clean with her, or ever lower my guard, just cause this might happen again...I`m confused, dazed, unsure what to do...I miss this girl I love so much, that I`m not sure what to do with the girl I have now...one thing is clear tho...I`m on a path of destruction and this damn wall is going to make things so much worst for me...how do I move forward when I`m clearly stuck in the past...
1986Scott 1986Scott
22-25, M
Nov 25, 2012