Everyone Wants to Be Me...except Me

I am not huge, but I am not the size I want to be... People say I am tiny, but it is only because they want to control me. I understand that the way I go about loosing weight isn't "normal" but it works for me. I can't be fat. No one would love me if I were. I just want to feel light and carefree. I wish I could stop the destructive cycle I find myself caught up in but it is hard. Not impossible just hard. I can't see what everyone else sees. They say I look tiny, but I can pinch fat. They say I have a good personality, but I think I have to be pretty to earn love. They say but I say..... That is the destructive pattern. God says but I say... that is my downfall.

shonmichelle shonmichelle
18-21, F
1 Response Feb 19, 2009

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