I Came Out

I Did It! Well ... Partially ...

By: Astory4supper

Written on March 12th, 2011

To all my fav EPeeps on here that know my story of how I was completely closeted ....Well ... I finally took one giant step for me out of that closet :D

I made myself a New years resolution to come out this year. I promised myself that I would tell my oldest sister when I came and visited her this March.

Well today ....around 2pm ...I finally did it! It was THE hardest thing that I have ever had to tell anyone.

She came in the room, and was asking me why I was acting so weird. She kept trying to guess what was wrong with me and I kept telling her nothing ...nothing is wrong with me ... I just got something on my mind. She asked me if I wanted to talk to her about it....and thats when I broke down and started crying....

I told her I want to tell her something ... but I just dont know how to say it ... and she goes " just say it!" ...as I took the deepest breathe of my life ... I finally managed to get out the words " Im gay..."

She was so supportive just like I knew she would be. As soon as I said it ... it was very unreal ... like ... "did I just say that?" "Did those words really just come out of my mouth?" She told me that she still loves me no matter what ....and that it doesnt change anything.

...its been a long day ... kind of like I was living in a dream. It was very weird... yet relieving to talk to someone finally about who I really am :) She had a lot of questions ( which I didnt mind answering) She said how shes still sort of shocked ...and how shes looking back on everything and piecing it all together.

She actually told me how shes "bi-curious" and we actually bonded a little today over what girls we find attractive :)

Its still so unreal to me ....just taking it all in....but im so proud of myself that I FINALLY did it :D

By: Astory4supper

Age: 22-25 , Female

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32 responses

newgirl3737

Gosh! You're awesome! I wish I could be that open with my oldest sister. Maybe one day. :)

Sep 2, 2012
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- Astory4supper
  aww it just takes time, and you gotta wait for the right moment. Just make sure youre ready and sure about yourself. You gotta accept yourself for who you are before others can. Im now about 80% out of the closet since writing this and its very liberating. Something every person struggling with being closeted deserves. Thanks for your kind words and if you ever need any advice, dont hesitate to ask. I know too well what it feels like to be trapped in that freakin closet, ive done it for 22 years :P Anyways, take care and good luck :)
  
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- newgirl3737
  Thank you. On the bright side, when you are 100% out of the closet/cocoon you will come out to be a beautiful butterfly! :)
  
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CountryExperiences

Sounds like a big jump, I am not bi or gay so I will just say I will never know how hard that must be, so you are very brave to me, and that was nice you and your sister bonded some more

Sincerely, Country

Jul 25, 2011
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Cadet1995

Yeah...My older brothers and I always talk about girls...and one tim we went to have lunch at this bar...and were all under 21 so we werent drinkin,but anyway the bar was called tilted kilts...its was like an irish hooters...and our waitress was blonde...and i have a thing for blondes (dirty blondes not bleach blondes...lol)...and we talked about her the rest of the day...

Apr 19, 2011
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Astory4supper

Aww thank you sweetie :)

Apr 10, 2011
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Whateverrrrr

I'm so proud of you! :)

Apr 10, 2011
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anonymouslesbian101

Wow congratulations you inspire me!! :)

Apr 7, 2011
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Astory4supper

*pats myself on the back*

Oh yes ... it was such a huge relief :) And Im pretty sure the first New Years resolution that I ever followed through on :P

Apr 7, 2011
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Astory4supper

Thank you so much :) Cheers!

Apr 5, 2011
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bemyvalentine

Well glad that's over with kiddo

Hugs and kuddos to you and your sister!

Happy the bond is there btween the both of you.

what a 'sigh' of relief. Now go have a beer and cheers, babe!

Apr 5, 2011
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RaggedEdge

Well done, I'm so pleased for you.

Apr 1, 2011
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Astory4supper

ahhh thank you sweetie :) Dont worry .... you'll find the strength to come out when the time is right :)

Mar 31, 2011
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lissa90

I wish I could get the courage to do it. I am so proud of you

Mar 31, 2011
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Astory4supper

Thanks everyone :D

Mar 26, 2011
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Thumpur

Whoa.. awesome! thats great!!

Mar 26, 2011
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christina1986

awsome. I bet u feel so much better. I cant wait til i get the courage to do that

Mar 25, 2011
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teiubesc

Wow ! Brave girl ... So nice that your sister is so suppotive :)

Mar 25, 2011
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c4711

Good for you and maybe there is hgope for me yet!!!

Mar 23, 2011
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ABsomething

well done! your sister is right, there is nothing wrong with it...

Mar 23, 2011
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river05

Good for you. Hopefully, it may get a little easier each time you find yourself in a similar situation.

Mar 22, 2011
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Astory4supper

Thank you so much sweetie! I'm proud of myself! Lol ... by far THE hardest thing i ever had to say to someone.

Mar 22, 2011
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Astory4supper

Thank you my dear :) It's an awesome feeling :)

Mar 19, 2011
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onlygodjudgeme

Well done :) Congratulations. It sure feels much better :)

Mar 19, 2011
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Astory4supper

Thank you everyone for your comments and support :)

*hugs to all*

Mar 12, 2011
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ttvelvet

fantastic babe! so, so happy for you. xo

Mar 12, 2011
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Yoru

This is great. I'm happy that it worked out well for you. It gives me hope to tell my family that I'm bi. Good luck if you want to tell the rest of your family. :) I hope they're as understanding.

Mar 12, 2011
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RogueAngelWithoutWings

im proud of you (:

Mar 12, 2011
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CaptainJackass

:) thats good to know hun. it takes real strength to do that.i still remember when i admitted to someone i was in love with her........... LET THE AWKWARD SILENCE ENSUE

Mar 12, 2011
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enzoenzo

good for you, you know, I have a friend of mine, he's gay, but he keeps it to himself. He didn't tell me that he is, and he doesn't know that I know. I once went to visit him, I have the keys of his studio, I thought he was in the faculty, but i heard some voices in his bedroom, I entered and he was in bed with another guy. I just get out immediately, they didn't notice me.

I know that he tried and he is trying to tell me. once he started telling me that I don't know everything about him, and he feels that he has to tell me something, but like always he says that its not the right moment.

I feel bad, I don't know if I have to tell him that I know or just wait until he decide to do so.

I love him, he's my best friend and I have no problem with his choices. I believe that that's his life and he's free to do whatever he feels good and appropriate for him.

Mar 12, 2011
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Astory4supper

Oh yes! Very much so :) Thank you sweetie :)

Mar 12, 2011
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michellel1978

I bet it feels like a weight has been partially lifted off of your heart...congrats, do the damn thing !!

Mar 12, 2011
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