I Want To

I wish I could talk to you one more time. I wish you would tell me why. Why was I so expendable? Why did you do so many things to me? Why were you such a liar? Did I do something to deserve it? I ask myself this many times. What did I do? I loved you as much as I could. I loved you even after you hurt me so bad. I loved you and gave you more chances to break my heart. And you did. Over and over until I broke. I shattered. Did you ever love me? Did you mean anything that you said to me? I still hear your voice in my had. I still play it over and over in my head. "I love you".

When can I get past this? When can I move on? Will I ever know the real you? I need to forget and move on. I need to but I can't...yet. You meant too much to me.I still love you. 
An Ep User An EP User
Jan 7, 2013