I Don't Understand

I've been there for him through thick and thin.  I've gotten him out of some pretty tough jams in the past.  He has helped me get out of some jams in the past, but it boiled down to him using my own resources.

I need now more than ever to be able to rely on him and I can't.  I don't understand.  He says he loves me and doesn't want to lose me, but he's only doing enough to keep us off the streets.

I have so many negatives going on right now and some of them were with his help.  So, why does he not want to help me anymore than what he is? 

I'd leave if I could afford to.  I know it's bound to happen down the line anyway, but right now I'm "stuck".  I'm past trying to talk.  All of the talking in the world has not helped anything.  He once used to be the only one I could rely on.  I don't know what happened. 

I know I feel all alone and deep in a hole that I can't get out of by myself right now.  I just wish could come up with enough money to take care of the things I need to, then I could concentrate on leaving this man that says he cares so much, but does not show it in any way shape or form.

silvermystics silvermystics
51-55, F
2 Responses Jul 9, 2007

i am so sorry...that is a really horrible situation, you are in my prayers.

I'm so sorry your feeling this way. There's been many times I've wanted to leave, but was "stuck" or I like to put it "trapped". Just throwing ideas out, but have you looked into getting the section 8 housing that's based off your income? And then there's always food stamps to get you food as well as some other charities that can help you pay for your utilities, ect. I really hope you can find what your looking for and that you have the strength to get through this. Good Luck dear!