Insights

Some people might think the only reason for me to write this, is that I just want to be different. That is untrue. I really, really do not want to be different. However, I believe the eyes of my mind just do not work the way they do with others.

I can see and feel it when something is wrong; immediately. I can feel it when someone experiences heavy emotions. I can sense it when someone is going in the wrong direction. I can sense if something is right or wrong. Aside from my best friend, no one understands. When I tell people, I frighten them or they laugh at me. The worst is when something wrong is happening to someone I love. It is exhausting to feel the suffering of someone else.

When I look at the world around me, I see so many things that are just not right, yet almost nobody else seems to realize. That does not matter much, because if they did see it, still nothing would happen. We, the people inhabiting this planet, have created a place reigned by structures that are forced, fake and only a cover for the living hell we have created. The proportions in this world are so uneven and so unfair. So many people suffer from things that are so futile. Yet we move on and use our smiles to cover the bad things.

I feel like there is a solution for all this, yet I can not find it. Sometimes we are close to discovering it, and sometimes we are further away than you could imagine. There is a chance that we will never find it, and I am trying to live with that. I am trying to be happy in a world that does not appeal to me, with the people that I love. It differs from day to day. I have good days, I have bad days. I hurt and I have fun. I feel safe and I feel vulnerable. But I guess we are doing okay. I am still standing.

JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente
18-21, F
3 Responses Feb 15, 2009

wow i can agree with a lot of that

Sometimes, I think we are just spirits haunting this palnet that haven't died yet. A beautiful ex<x>pression of longing for emotional justice and mental peace.<br />
Thank you for sharing this.

Sometimes, I think we are just spirits haunting this palnet that haven't died yet. A beautiful ex<x>pression of longing for emotional justice and mental peace.<br />
Thank you for sharing this.