We Argue All The Time...

hm... hard to explain it... I guess I have to say, that when I was younger we realy had a great relationship... until the day she went back to switzerland in ordre to go to university...
with my twin sister and even my youngest sis I get along great... but with my olfer one... lets just say It turns from bad to world war 3...

I can't say It's her falt even thought I feal she doesn't understands me like she used to... she used to know that I can be realy sensetiv but just freak out in ordre to fool everyone, that I'm just rude or bad behafed or even throing a tantrum about nothing...

we may have been growing appart after she moved out but it got worse after Mum died... don't get me wrong I'm greatfull for her taking care of us... but it's kind of, like she doesn't even try to understand me anypore... and that lets me freak out so bad, that I do everything I know it will **** her off... I would never admit it to her (honest I would deny to have ever written this) but sometimes I realy miss her...

I mean when I was younger even after she moved out... she was the only person I realy could talk to... sure I can talk to my twin bunt thats different... she Is allways the one hideing behind my temper... I allways have to fight for the both of us... and I allways have to be the one to decide how to deal with problems...
with my older sister it used to be her to help me decide to give me advice and so on... or her trying to protect me even if she knew what I did was wrong... just because I was her little sister...

now... it feels more like I'm her only problem... allways getting on her nerves, if I intend to or not... and If I dousen't **** her off, I freak out against her for nothing... rely we can't speak 3 polite words with each other...

ok I get that she has to try to be a parental figure... but right now she is neather ... yeah it realy feels like world war three...

I mean I got my self suspended from school just because I knew it would **** her off... it's something I cant control anymore... I cant say who stardet it... but wir kind of driffteing futher appart day by day,,,,
SamPrue SamPrue
16-17
1 Response May 21, 2012

feel ya bro
my sis dont get it doesnt try to and is real mean
but i aint as good with the words as her so i cant defend myself
i could beat her up like but i dont really want to...
my parents are still alive but aint good role models niether
in the end i have to look after them all like but somehone everythings still my fault...
like if my mother yells at me for naught
i get the other yelling at me all like "how dare yer make yer mother cry" and that....
so i get what your on about...
hope it improves....
i empathy

First I'm no bro...
And then thanks for proving that you didn't understand at all...

But yeah things are better...

just cuz my situations different dont mean i dont understand
glad to hear that =)