No Idea How To React

I'm so confused. My best friend broke up with me. I have like my best friend for a long time and appearently she liked me to. I had no idea she liked me until about 2 weeks ago. We started datig and we talked about getting an apartment together and I thought she loved me like I loved her. But, a few days ago she talked to her guy friend that she's know since childhood who told her we shouldn't be together since we are friends. I never date my friends because in the past it has ruined things, but it was different with her, I felt real feelings for her. Appearently she has dated friends too and when she does, in the words of her friend, she "gets bored, strains the relationship, breaks up, then you never talk again.". She wanted to end it now because we are pretty much like sisters and we are all eachother really has as close friends, so she didn't want to ruin us. When she told me on the phone I wanted to cry, but I held it together and tried to play it off without talking too much because I was afraid she'd hear the strain in my voice. Now, I don't know what to do. I don't understand and I don't want to just accept it and move on. My first thought was maybe she liked someone else, but she said she wouldn't go with anyone else. I'm not sure if she was lieing or not. I mean why wouldn't she? Thats the point isn't it? Then you can date other poeple and find someone who isn't your best friend. A small part of my mind tells me she is lieing and that she never liked me let alone loved me and that of course she wouldn't want to date someone like me when she could have some one thinner and prettier. And sometimes it tells me maybe I was just an experiment, wouldn't be the first time someone has used me to test the waters. I push that part of my mind down but when I'm upset it pops back up. I have no idea what to do now. All I can think to do is glue the pieces back together,put on a smiling friendship mask, and hope I can get through this without losing her.
pikachu93 pikachu93
22-25, F
Jul 27, 2012