I Cant Be the Real Me to the Outside World
Top emotions:
Just wants to be loved....and love...MOST OF ALL.
Yet cannot tell you what it means to her.
Just wants some joy in her life.
Yet sits in gut-wrenching agony most of the time.
Just needs to be angry at times.
Yet never, ever acts on it.
Just feels sadness that is to deep to describe.
Yet longs to share some deep, dark, secret, painful tears.
Just understands that fear can take shut her down.
Yet has a way to appear not so shut down.
Just does not want to have to be so full of shame.
Yet feels untouchable......unreachable.
Just feels like the hurt is is unending.
Yet encompasses it for the sake of growth.
If I asked you:
Would you let me tell you I am so sorry.....
But have no apologies fitting enough.
Would you show me forgiveness...
But never, ever really forget, just forgive.
Would you understand my voice needs to be heard..
But never hear it.
Would you share your voice with me.....
But be so scared to do it.
Would you let her tell you her stories....
But never take the time.
Would you share your own stories...
But not ever really wanting to.
Would you let me in...
But never completely.
Would I let you in....
But I would.
Would you come or call if I asked you to...
But I know you will not.
Would you ever want to touch me...
But be so afraid of that touch.
Would you ever want to hold me...
But never put your arms up.
Would you let me ask a million quesitons...
But know that there may never be a direct, one-word simple answer.
Would you let me look you in the eyes..
But never reach over and tell me you know.
Would you try to just have some faith and trust in me...
But I know you may not be able to.
Would you be so fearful of the pain and memories?
But understand I feel it also.
Would this be to impossible for you....
But know that there is a way to make the impossible, possible.
Would it be just to damn hard....
But be the oppertunity of a life time.
Would only ask that you love her...
Because she loves you.
The Real Me....
Waits for...
The Real You.
