Loving Maddness

I am normally a very strong person
Things like this don't usually happen
I wasn't looking
I swear I wasn't

Thankfully my first love didn't last too long
He came and went like a song
So why do I feel so empty inside
After all I really didn't enjoy the ride

I will always remember his hands were soft and hot
I will remember kissing him or maybe not
Was this real, I ask myself
Why can't I just forget him, you just ask keep asking yourself

He still pops in and out from time to time
Playing my heart with his fingers, is this a sign?
Why do I allow him to get to me so?
Sometimes I wish, he would just go slow

Then I realize a sudden fear comes with that thought
lessons learned are certainly not taught
I can't seem to get a hold of myself
Remembering him so, causes maddness, therefore is a crime in itself

They say time heals all wounds
I am fixing to put it to the test, and soon
Will he come back, I am really not sure
I wonder each and every day that passes, if this is the pain, I must endure?

He loves me, he loves me not
I ask myself this question again and again, after all I am a crackpot
lessons learned, are sometimes thought
Then again, some lessons are brought

If he comes back again, I will know
If this feeling is real, I guess it will show
If he doesn't come back, I will know
I must forget I ever met him and all this sorrow

Please father in heaven, give me strength
For I am weak of heart and on the wrong wavelength
If he decides to break my heart into
I pray father, that you take me too

In nomine patris, et filii, etspiritus sancti
JustcallmeCurly JustcallmeCurly
46-50, F
1 Response Sep 25, 2012

You continue to fascinate and amaze. That is truly a beautiful prayer/ benediction. You have reminded us all once again; that it is much easier to let someone into our lives/heart than get them out.