I Wouldn't Change The Past If I Could!

Sure, there's been plenty of bad mixed in with the good. I've definitely made my share, or more, of mistakes, and been wronged by other people at times when it was out of my control.
But at this point in my life, I'm comfortable and even happy with who I've become. And I suspect, at the risk of being a little cliched, that that's due more to the negative experiences than the positive ones. Being hurt made me resilient, mistakes made me cautious but not too cautious, being forgiven made me more trusting, and forgiving made me more at peace with myself. That last one's probably the most important. Only recently, and about 15 years after the fact, did I find it in me to forgive one of the worst things a person could possibly have done to me, and being able to let that go changed my whole perspective for the better. I hadn't even realized it was getting in my way.
It's the best feeling in the world...okay, maybe one of the best...to step back and realize that nothing I've gone through and nothing I've done has prevented me from living with purpose and a fair measure of satisfaction.
I can't wait to see what will come next!
citystargazer citystargazer
26-30, F
2 Responses Jul 19, 2010

Thanks - whatever it is, I'm sure it'll be interesting.<br />
I don't know if I'd see things this way without sitting down to write out this sort of thing - it sort of organizes all of the reasons to be positive together in one place!

You have a brilliant way of looking at things.If we can all learn from all experiences positive and negative then we can all become better people.I hope what is to come is even better.