Guilt

I'm not perfect, but I wish I were. Right now I'm beating myself up emotionally, night after night, because of actions that I am ashamed of. And the truth is, I don't know if I'm more disappointed with myself or worried someone will find out. Because if someone finds out, that means I will have to confess my sins. But if no one finds out, I may never forgive myself.
scioesse scioesse
26-30
3 Responses Aug 3, 2010

I agree. You need to pour it all out, if not anonymously on EP, then at least to someone you know you could trust and who would care - and we all have at least one such person in our lives. Just take a leap of faith and do something soon, otherwise it'll eat you all up.<br />
<br />
I really hope you feel much better soon. I know what this feeling feels like and holding it has ugly consequences.

keeping it bottled up does not help either.

Maybe you have, but you can confess anonymously on EP...