Written on April 7th, 2011
Engagement, pregnancy, death of mum unexpectedly, fiancee diagnosed with incurable cancer, chemo starts, dad dies unexpectedly, chemo works a little but has to be resumed 6 mths later, potential bone marrow ahead of us and now I am ill. All this in the space of 5 years. I need to have a colonoscopy and quick cause I am in so much pain. Worrying the two kids 3yrs and 4yrs will have no mum or dad soon.Trying to juggle kids and fiancees illness with no family and not many friends in a place where I moved to be with him, my fiancee. Just want to go back to a normal life. No worries. Back where my brothers live. Is that selfish?? I have had enough now. Every day is a constant battle alone even though I love my fiancee, he has his own fight to be getting on with. How do I keep this up?