ChangeWhat is it about the past that I find so difficult to deal with.
Why do I miss things that I never even enjoyed while having it.
Why do I miss things that I never liked to begin with.
Why is it so hard for me to deal with change when my current situation isn't that great.
When I think back about my past. The people I knew then, old friends and old jobs. There is a feeling of sadness surrounding those thoughts. But it is not a sadness in that things were better back then. It's more about change. It is about the knowing that things once were a certain way and that it will never return that way again. It is an unsatisfying feeling. Knowing that I can never revisit that. I can never go there again. Much like knowing you will never be a teenager again. I don't miss being a teenager, but knowing that I will never be one again is a feeling of loss.