Accepting The Past And Moving On...About 10 months ago, staring at the walls, wide awake at 3am, I was plagued with negative thoughts.. Depression n anxiety were at their peaks, so much that once I even thought of suicide...but was so afraid of just thinking about it that I finally started therapy...
I was extremely unhappy, dissatisfied n lonely.. Didnt know what I was goin to do with my life, didnt even get out of my room in the hostel for many days..
All of this was a result of low self esteem, low self confidence n everything low...since my childhood.
Well, that's a past now.. And since last few months, i'm trying to accept it coz I cant change my past..
Instead, now I see Life as a Journey...so painful memories of past dont matter now.. They are a part of this journey..
And these days i'm trying to learn to love every moment... ofcourse I still have my bad days, but that's what makes everything I do interesting.. Coz I now learn from those mistakes n move on..
Since I dont want to do what i'm currently doing, I can change it by doing something else.. And the most wonderful thing about this journey is that there's no destination for me, I just want to explore, travel all over, live each moment, listen to my heart.. Success.. failure..dont even matter coz thats what we've defined..
This might seem a bit too ideal, but thats what i'm trying to do each day, I have lots to learn..but i'm happier n content than I was 10 months ago.
I still get frustrated, angry, but I remind myself about how I can change it if I want to.. I can change my future by my thoughts n the actions I take..
Rather than dwelling in the past, I try to think of future coz that's totally goin to be the way I want...
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