Moving On

I have had problems with an addiction for 5 years and after a while I knew I had to stop or else it would destroy me. It took me a long time to stop but I did. This problem has changed me to the worst now I am trying to be the person I used to be and happy. I still often look back even tough I know I should not but it is still painful and hard not to think about. I have never been very good at letting go and this 5 years of my life have been extremely difficult but I am now hopefully moving on. This is the only experience in my life that sometimes I think I would erase but I now that it is impossible.
agentfox agentfox
41-45
1 Response Jan 5, 2013

First off I'd like to say congratulations for speaking out and for stopping!
Addiction recovery is a scary process. You’ve got to face those feelings of anxiety and fear that cause you to abuse your addiction. They keep you stuck in recovery.
You must bring into attention your fears. Write down what you're afraid of.

Examples:
I’m afraid that even God is mad at me
I’m afraid I won’t be accepted by my friends if I stop my addiction
I’m afraid nobody will love me again because I’ve screwed up my life so bad
I’m afraid my life doesn’t count for anything. My dreams are dead.

I want you to write down your fears. Putting things on paper brings clarity to your situation. It’s not all up in your head swimming around, causing confusion.

Secondly, learn about Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT) or Meridian Tapping. Research it if you must.

Third, you must discover what it is you are moving toward in life. Yes, you want to get away from your addiction. But what do you want to do instead? What are your dreams? What kind of relationships do you want to have? Write all these things down so you can obtain clarity.

Fourth.. Want to make your life more exciting? Go to Tiny Buddha . com and look up 25 little changes to make the day more exciting.