Don't Dwell On The Past

Wouldn’t all of you like to change one thing from your past? Some horrible mistake you made? How about something you said that altered someone’s life? Yeah we’d all like to change our past but we can’t. “Done but can’t be undone” said in a book I once read by Stephen King. Fact is we all desperately urge to change something from our past. You know what mine is? My first boyfriend.
I had my first boyfriend in grade six. He was very kind and sweet. One of my friends however warned me to stay away from him, that he was bad news, but I wouldn’t hear of it. Stupid me thought she was just jealous. Turns out she was right.
You see I was just like his pawn in a way. He moved me in his stratagie and when he could call check, he did away with me. Just. Like. That.
At first I was heart broken. It was after all my first boyfriend, and I just thought we would last.
After that I went into a negative thinking state. I thought there was something wrong with me. Was I to fat? To ugly? Was it my hair? My teeth? I began to look and see only my flaws, a problem I still struggle with.
The last thing I felt before moving on was complete anger. How could he use me like that?! When I seen him all I could see was red. It took everything in me not to lash out. Now though, I just don’t care at all.
That’s what I’d like to change from my past. I can’t though. What I can do however is change my futur by learning from mypast to make sure I never end up with anyone like him ever again.
What do you want to change?
irishlassy98 irishlassy98
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 14, 2013

In all honesty, this sort of attitude sickens me. I'm the kind of person who will try to be culturally tolerant, but this first boyfriend of yours truly is the sort of guy to put this tolerance to the test.

I think you do well in learning from the past, but as a friendly advice I'd like to warn you not to judge every man to be the same as your first boyfriend. A girl once hurt me very much for treating me like I was the same as her ex, a cheater. So much that she failed to see what I truly felt for her.