The Past Has Changed Me
I have a different outlook on my future. All my plans I had, had to go, they were impossible.
So, I can't change the change my past has inflected on me. I must roll with the punches.
The worse damage done by my past is my heart can't be got! It's stonecold when it comes to wanting, needing a man, a lover, a companion. I won't lie to you... deep down I so would love to love again. Oh.. I love, everything, even life at times ;) But I am talking on the level of romance.
I fell in love awhile back, something I swore, like here.. I would never do. I did! And it conformed my idea, my belief ... Close the windows, lock the doors to this poor old broken heart.
I will survive by loving myself, my critters, my gardens. This last love I ... experienced.. put a damper on my soul! I can't afford to allow it... lol.. "it"..love to enter my heart again. Shoot, there is all kinds of love. Love for my son, my grand children, my critters, my love for Mother Earth. I love, I give a loving smile to all that i meet. BUT... love for a man, well.. shaking head... only superman could melt this frozen heart of mine.
I love everyone on some kind of level. I will talk to anyone, on every day subjects, what's going on in life at hand. It is so wonderful to have friends!!!! They light my world up. Never would I want it any other way..
So, since it's just little of Me, my life's future is going to be different than I had thought a few years ago... Yup, my past has changed me. It is what it is! sigh.... *smile*