I Cannot Change “my Past”...and I Don’t Need To.I cannot change “my past”...and I don’t need to......and I don't not want to either.
I had always been lucky having special people touching my life, specially friends, and people I have fallen in love with,
My husband was not the exception. Our life was always exciting, full of everything, one day was never as another. We both are creative, so we gave our life a doze of insanity, by doing always exciting things. W live in the most beautiful places. We lived in Puerto Vallarta, Genève, Milan, Tenerife, Cancun, and Cuernavaca, where I actually live.
Things happen for a reason and now I know, that I am much better now, that I was then, but I did not know. I am divorce now. He cheated on me, I believe in forgiveness, but I could not live with someone I don’t trust. And even he always regret losing his family, he understood that my decision had nothing to do with LOVE, but with trust. He has grown and became a better person himself, and we do have a fantastic relation. After all, he gave me so much and I have to be honest with myself - he colored my life, in some many ways. He gave me the best heritage “my two kids”, so I am grateful of all I shared with this man.
When I ended my marriage, I was so depressed , couldn't eat, couldn’t sleep, did not want to do anything for two or three months, I was in my bones, size 12 girls. Because I wanted a family, It was my family that I lost by being very trustful with both of them,
I do not know NOW if my marriage was the best in the world, but it was my family, good or bad, and I was happy. I did not want a family with a mother and kids, which was not my life project; I wanted the whole package to feel complete.
One day I cried more than the others...almost all day, and the very next day I just woke up and said to myself this in not the way I want my children to look at me I AM A FAMILY WITH THEM, a family ba
I have had the time to spend with myself, to see things on another perspective, and to feel very ´proud the way I became myself again.
So, I love to say that past is past.....future is uncertain....and I just have TODAY...a gift, that is why is call PRESENT.
I cannot change my past, and I don’t want to change it, but I can look for a brighter future, and I am on my way to do so!