My Past Doesnt Make Me.

One thing i cant stand is how people i don't know, or thought i knew, would(and still) judge me on my past. Yes i have been several mistakes in my past, done several things that reflect me even now, But who doesn't make mistakes? Everyone does &people who judge me on my past obviously are ignorant.& oh well not my problem.

But i wouldn't take my past back and redo it if i could. You have to learn somehow right? I am the type of person who needs to learn on my own terms. That could be a good thing, or bad...all depends.

The past year and a half have been crazy for me and i consider my self lucky. I could be in a very bad position because of the things i used to do. In jail, in rehab, anything. But i am lucky to be home with my family.

I don't even like to think about my past because it lends to so many questions. I wonder why me, why did i do that, why did i believe that, and the questions go on.

BUT IT IS WHAT IT IS.

I have kind have took a turn recently and i don't do anything bad anymore. I stopped talking to the people who would have ended up putting me in jail, and so much more.

I am young, sure. I am a mother as well. I have my 2 parents, and i know who i am. Certain people think my life is over because of my past and because i am a mother.

Well they and anyone else who thinks that is wrong& can go kick rocks:)

My baby girl is my motivation. I am soon to be in college and i am doing good.

 

Courage4Ever Courage4Ever
18-21, F
Feb 17, 2010