Victim Of Abuse

I was abused as a child from the age of 7 by a friends father.  He did so much damage to me that I can't have any normal relationships and the dream of having my own family went out the window when the damge he did me resulted in me having to have a hysterectomy.

I am a very bitter person who struggles to get through each day and people that I considered to be friends have moved away and refused to get in touch with me even after I've emailed them directly.

I feel lonely, lost and so very unloved.

offid offid
51-55, F
3 Responses Feb 25, 2010

All hope is not lost. This is a horrible thing that has happened to you. Sometimes things happen to us that are so bad we don't know what caused this. It makes everyday a struggle. I was abused in everyway possible as a child. No result like yours but mental scars that still are present. I think of what might have been. I day dream of a happier me, one without scars, smiling in the sunshine. We can live each day and find happiness in the little things. Maybe an animal, a trip, the sun. It is hard to hear others tell you how you should react or get over it or change your life. They just don't understand. I am not as courageous as you to discuss the things I went through for fear of the outside world knowing. I have deep secrets of abuse that go further beyond the words in my story. I know bitterness. It has consumed my life. I here searching for help too. I know with all the sickness in this world that there is good. I watch Joel Osteen a preacher from Huston. His preaching makes me have hope for a better mankind.

hun i am so sorry to hear that... you are a hell of person .. amazing and strong... don't worry your life will change somehow just have faith in yourself.. and be patient... i wish i can help you more .. if you need anyone to listen to you i am here hun ...:)

I am sorry to here that you had a damaging experience at such an early age that changed you and your future so dratically. Have you thought about speaking to a counselor or joining a support group that can help unravel this damaging secret you have kept for so long.